by Jennifer | Jan 27, 2016 | Blog
The week started off good. I was able to manage the pain and help out quite a bit around the house. Tom needed to work a lot this past week because of a new menu tasting he had yesterday (which went really well). So I am thankful for those good days.
Even though the week started off good, Monday afternoon/evening and Tuesday were really hard. Monday night around 6:30, my body said, “Enough is enough,” and I had no choice but to lay down. I’m so thankful Tammy was here to help with the girls.
Tuesday was a hard day and girls did great afterschool, despite me laying down most of the time. Last night was one of those nights I probably should have had help around the house, since Tom had to work in Seattle ’til about 9. But we survived. I think I might have scared our oldest a bit because I was so tired and not feeling well. I even cried for a bit in bed. When Tom got home, she had a lot of questions for him about me.
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by Jennifer | Jan 23, 2016 | Blog |
It’s hard to believe that my Mom has been gone for 14 years. In some ways it seems like forever. When she was alive I was married, but working full time with no kids. . . a life that seems so foreign to me now.
With my cancer diagnosis, I wondered how I would be feeling today, the anniversary of her death. I don’t feel like it’s harder this year, but it’s definitely different.
Each year on this day, I relive the morning in my head. Hearing my Dad leave for work, walking out of the bedroom at 7:30 am to find my Mom no longer alive, calling my Dad to tell him, calling Tom (who didn’t answer the phone), calling Christina next door who went banging on the windows of our house to tell Tom to call me, hugging and crying with my Aunt Karen, going to Forest Lawn and lots more crying.
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by Jennifer | Sep 18, 2015 | Blog |
It still baffles me that I have breast cancer. Today as I’m in the dressing from getting ready for my MRI, and the technician was asking me questions, I had to say, “I have breast cancer.” It just doesn’t seem real.
I’m going in for all these test and Dr. appointments (while trying to hide them from the 3 kids until we know more). I feel wonderful. I’m unpacking snorkels and waterproof bags from amazon.com and thinking about what to pack for a 10 day cruise on a Princess cruise ship (my dream vacation) with just my husband to Mexico to celebrate our 20th anniversary. (God’s timing is perfect! Well, it always is, but sometimes it just seems more obvious to me than others.)
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by Jennifer | Sep 8, 2015 | Blog |
It was a long weekend, not because of anything that happened, but just because of the news and the fact it kept coming to my mind. Life will never be the same. Never again will I be able to go to the Dr. and answer no to all of the medical history questions like I did last Wednesday.
I felt like I was walking around in a daze. I just have this feeling of heaviness and depression. Different things keep coming to my mind and I try and get them out right away, but then a new one will pop in my head. Grrrr! I think not know the exact details of what is wrong is that hardest. I’m praying for a cancellation so I can get an earlier biopsy. It’s hard to wait this long and then know I have to wait a few days after that for the results.
I’m grateful for the texts, phone calls and emails from friends and family, just letting us know that they care and are here for us.
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