I’m sorry you found my blog.
HA! What a funny thing to say on a blog!! But seriously, if you landed here, you either know me, or know someone that has cancer. That’s why I’m sorry!
I hate that word.
I remember sitting in the oncologist’s office in my early 20’s listening to the Dr. tell me that while it was not likely I would get Ocular Melanoma like my Mom, 3 out of 4 people would be diagnosed with some sort of cancer in their life. Since all of my Grandparents and my Mom have died of some type of cancer, I knew my day would come. I just never thought my diagnosis would be the day after my 41st birthday and as a mother of a 10, 7 and 6 year old.
Fast forward 4 years (October 2019) and the cancer has returned in other bones. So here we are, ready to fight again…and looking to be on some sort of treatment for the rest of my life.
This blog is my journey as I fight to leave cancer behind and move on in my life.
I should probably back up and introduce myself . . . my name is Jennifer. I’m a Christ follower, married to an amazing man (who happens to be a chef), have 3 beautiful daughters and I’ve been diagnosed with Stage IV Breast Cancer which has spread to my sternum.
I know it can be confusing when you stumble upon a new blog, so let me help you get started.
- I have a blog to keep track of my thoughts and to let friends and family know what’s going on.
- You can get to know our family or read my personal testimony here.
- As I’ve been going through different procedures, I’ve written down what it was like. You can find a list of those over in the side bar (or down at the bottom if you are on a mobile device).
- Click here to receive an email when I publish new posts.
- And finally, if you noticed above that I’m married to a chef and think that must be the MOST AMAZING THING EVER, click here and browse through my blog about what it’s really like to be married to a chef. (I love blogging. Can you tell?)
Here’s what’s going on with me right now . . .
I spent a few hours in the local ER today getting some fluids. They made a big difference in how I am feeling overall. Today I was able to get out of bed and sit up on the sofa for a while, and even do a few things around the house. Not much, but at least I could get out of bed! I will get fluids again on Thursday.
Still no improvement in the pain in my esophagus. I drank 2 Ensures and ate tapioca pudding, a few roasted potatoes and some pork. I had to take a little more pain medicine to get that down though. But a little more food than than yesterday…♥️
Well, I definitely don’t recommend it, but the side effects from radiation are serving as a great weight loss program for me right now. 🤣😭😔
Seriously….if I don’t joke about it, I will cry.
The burning in my esophagus is worse today. I ran a few errands, tried to go to the gym, but it just hurts too much. I spent most of the day in bed. I am allowed to take the liquid medicine the Dr, gave me 8 times a day. It takes the edge off for about a minute, but that’s it. Breathing is uncomfortable as well.:-(read more…
Day one of the chemo pills – light headed and not feeling the greatest – most likely due to the fact that it hurts to eat or drink anything. Other than that, not much to report.
I posted this on Facebook this morning –
First chemo pill ✔️
Infinite amount left to go 😔
Quick update tonight…
Hooray! Radiation is over. It has definitely helped the pain in my sternum, as I can now lay down for a while and not be in severe pain. However, it looks like I have traded that pain for pain in my esophagus. It now is very painful to eat or during anything, even water. I spoke with the radiation oncologist and he prescribed a compound medicine which they mixed for me today that I can take before I eat to help numb my esophagus and make it so it is not quite as painful. Hopefully the pain will last less than a week.read more…
Looking ahead to the week, I finish radiation on Tuesday and that same day will get my first hormone blocking shot. I have friends with me on both Monday and Tuesday and Tom meeting us there on Tuesday for the shot so I will not be alone. I’m pretty depressed, so I am thankful to have the company. Thursday I will start the chemo pills.read more…
I am very tired, overwhelmed and not feeling very good tonight, but I found out info. about treatment next week so here is a quick update.
I had my 6th day of radiation today and it was a rough day. The side effects have started – fatigue and heartburn/strange feeling in my chest. I had a lot of pain in my chest last night and didn’t sleep well. I ended up taking more pain meds today than normal to get through the day.read more…