I’m sorry you found my blog.
HA! What a funny thing to say on a blog!! But seriously, if you landed here, you either know me, or know someone that has cancer. That’s why I’m sorry!
I hate that word.
I remember sitting in the oncologist’s office in my early 20’s listening to the Dr. tell me that while it was not likely I would get Ocular Melanoma like my Mom, 3 out of 4 people would be diagnosed with some sort of cancer in their life. Since all of my Grandparents and my Mom have died of some type of cancer, I knew my day would come. I just never thought my diagnosis would be the day after my 41st birthday and as a mother of a 10, 7 and 6 year old.
This blog is my journey as I fight to leave cancer behind and move on in my life.
I should probably back up and introduce myself . . . my name is Jennifer. I’m a Christ follower, married to an amazing man (who happens to be a chef), have 3 beautiful daughters and I’ve been diagnosed with Stage IV Breast Cancer which has spread to my sternum.
I know it can be confusing when you stumble upon a new blog, so let me help you get started.
- I have a blog to keep track of my thoughts and to let friends and family know what’s going on.
- You can get to know our family or read my personal testimony here.
- As I’ve been going through different procedures, I’ve written down what it was like. You can find a list of those over in the side bar (or down at the bottom if you are on a mobile device).
- Click here to receive an email when I publish new posts.
- And finally, if you noticed above that I’m married to a chef and think that must be the MOST AMAZING THING EVER, click here and browse through my blog about what it’s really like to be married to a chef. (I love blogging. Can you tell?)
Here’s what’s going on with me right now . . .
Well….on Day 5 of Tamoxifen, I have SEVERE bone pain and was super weepy…that silly crying for no reason and wishing the cancer had just taken my life so I didn’t have to deal with these pills and stupid side effects. I couldn’t sleep and finally took Tramadol just to get through the next day (which I hate to do because of the side effects from that medicine.) I only had to take it twice, but it’s taken my body about a week to get back to normal from just those 2 Tramadol pills. But I am thankful they helped so I could get out of bed.
I messaged my Primary Care Dr. and we chatted about the mild bone pain I have had off and on all the time since cancer treatment, on a hormone blocking pill or not. The hormone blocking pills and the Tamoxifen just seem to make it a million times worse, and hard to function and do anything. We decided to try the high dose of vitamin D again, as that did help. So for now, no Tamoxifen until we see if the Vitamin D2 helps. My oncologist said there is another pill I can try, but I think I’ll give the Tamoxifen another chance after Christmas.
Happy Thanksgiving everyone!
Between the girls and I, I have been to 16, yes 16, medical appointments this month! I’m done with October!
I am happy to say I am currently not on any medication! It’s a nice break. I know I will be going back on a new hormone blocking pill in early November, but for now, I’m am thankful to just be taking vitamins! read more…
Quick post today….my infusion was a bit of an adventure. My veins were very uncooperative. The nurses in the infusion center are AMAZING!! I just adore them and they are so good at their job. But even with all their skill, it took 3 nurses and 5 attempts (5 pokes) to get a vein they could use for my blood draw and infusion. read more…
I was happy to see a MyChart message this afternoon, and even happier after I read it.
“Good news, no sign of cancer. Just probably an old scar spot in the lung, unchanged.”
9 Dr. Appointments or scans in 5 weeks….yay! I just love it when I see all those appointments on my calendar….ummm….not really.
But seriously, here’s what’s coming up (or just happened)…
10/1 – Orthopedic surgeon read more…
I’m writing this as I am on the treadmill, out of breath, talking into my phone.
But before I write anymore, can I just very nicely say that I am not looking for suggestions of things to do or try at this point. I am just being transparent on this journey. Thank you so much for understanding that.
I’ve been debating on whether or not to even write a post, but I keep coming back to the reasons I started this blog in the first place… Keeping friends and family up-to-date with my cancer journey, being transparent so others can know what it’s like to battle stage 4 breast cancer (as I know I had absolutely no idea before I started this journey), and letting others know that they are not alone on this journey. read more…