cropped-butterfly-2.pngI’m sorry you found my blog.

HA!  What a funny thing to say on a blog!!  But seriously, if you landed here, you either know me, or know someone that has cancer.  That’s why I’m sorry!

Cancer.

I hate that word.

I remember sitting in the oncologist’s office in my early 20’s listening to the Dr. tell me that while it was not likely I would get Ocular Melanoma like my Mom, 3 out of 4 people would be diagnosed with some sort of cancer in their life.  Since all of my Grandparents and my Mom have died of some type of cancer, I knew my day would come.  I just never thought my diagnosis would be the day after my 41st birthday and as a mother of a 10, 7 and 6 year old.

This blog is my journey as I fight to leave cancer behind and move on in my life.

I should probably back up and introduce myself . . . my name is Jennifer.  I’m a Christ follower, married to an amazing man (who happens to be a chef), have 3 beautiful daughters and I’ve been diagnosed with Stage IV Breast Cancer which has spread to my sternum.

I know it can be confusing when you stumble upon a new blog, so let me help you get started.

  • I have a blog to keep track of my thoughts and to let friends and family know what’s going on.
  • You can get to know our family or read my personal testimony here.
  • As I’ve been going through different procedures, I’ve written down what it was like.  You can find a list of those over in the side bar (or down at the bottom if you are on a mobile device).
  • Click here to receive a daily, weekly or monthly email when I publish new posts.
  • And finally, if you noticed above that I’m married to a chef and think that must be the MOST AMAZING THING EVER, click here and browse through my blog about what it’s really like to be married to a chef.  (I love blogging.  Can you tell?)

Jennifer

Here’s what’s going on with me right now . . .

Pill Update and new Plastic Surgeon

It’s been just over a week and so far so good with the new hormone blocking pill. 🙂

I met with a new plastic surgeon earlier this week.  I’m having some severe itching and occasional pain on the large scars on my healthy breast and it’s bad enough that I want to have them taken care of.  He recommended removing them surgically and then doing 3 low dose rounds of radiation to make sure they don’t come back.  I’m waiting to hear back on the cost, but thinking about trying to wait until the first of the year, so that the cost will go toward our max out of pocket for 12 months instead of just a few months. read more…

New Pill Starting Wednesday

I’ve been off the hormone blocking pill for 2 weeks and my pain is gone.  It’s nice.  🙂

So I start a new pill tomorrow (Wednesday).  Please pray the side effects will be less, or none.  I meet with the oncologist next week for a quick follow-up.

Pain update

I’ve now been off the hormone blocking pill for 1 week and the pain was much better for a few days, but unfortunately, it is back.  While not quite as bad as before, it’s definitely back.  🙁  Please pray that over the course of the next week it will go away.  If so, I will start the new medication.  If not, I’ll contact the Dr. and I believe we look into a scan to see what’s going on.  Please also pray that I will not worry during this time of waiting.  Thanks for praying with us.

The quest for the perfect bathing suit after chemo, radiation and multiple surgeries

I will admit, one of the first things I did when I found out I was going to need a mastectomy was search for what type of bathing suits were out there.  This was before I knew anything about surgery or reconstruction.

Turns out there are quite a few post mastectomy bathing suits available, but I don’t need any of them.  Honestly, I could wear a bikini and you wouldn’t be able to tell I had surgery.  (Not that I’m going to do that, but you get my point.)  I am very thankful for the plastic surgery options that are available.

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Pain, pain, go away…

Pain, pain, go away.  Come again another….well actually, just go away.

I’ve been struggling with really bad bone pain lately.  I had my checkup with the Oncologist today and we talked about it.  The plan for now is to stop the hormone blocking pill I’m on (Aromasin) and let the symptoms go away.  Then start up another hormone blocking pill (Femara), hoping for less side effects.  If after 2 week of stopping the current pill, I am still having bone pain, we’ll talk about doing a scan to find out what is causing the pain. read more…

Radiation, a Year Later

My Facebook memory this morning was a picture of my first morning of radiation last year.  I am so thankful that I don’t have to do that EVERY DAY this summer.

A year later, you would never know I had radiation, with the exception of the 3 little dot tattoos that I will have forever.  (Although I only grow hair in about half of my left arm pit, thanks to the radiation.  I know…probably too much information, but I find it funny.  You’re welcome for that little bit of personal information.)

So instead of driving to radiation, I woke the kids up (our 3 and 1 friend) and took our oldest to an orthodontist appointment.  She got her expander out and her mouth is much happier!! read more…