Scanxiety
Scanxiety – (Noun) The feeling of terror and dread that one experiences as they await the results of a scan, once again faced with the possible return of cancer.
Scanxiety.
It’s a word I had never hear until about a year ago.
It’s real. Oh my…is it real.
Here’s how my days have gone the past few days…my mind starts worrying that the PET scan will light up like a Christmas tree, showing the cancer has returned…stop thinking that and remind myself that the Bible says not to worry, but to pray about everything. And even if the cancer has returned, remember that God will be with us through whatever treatment is ahead. REPEAT.
Medicine update and PET Scan
This is day 8 of the new medication and I’m feeling pretty good. There have been two times my entire body has been throbbing pretty badly, but so far no depression and I’m very thankful for that. I’m tracking how I’m feeling and what my activity has been around the time I’ve started to hurt. We’ll see what the next week holds.
Goodbye Cloud of Depression
So…. I switched the medicine on Wednesday morning and when I woke up on Thursday morning it was if a cloud of depression was lifted off of my shoulders.
I had no idea that it would happen so fast, but I’m very thankful. Nothing changed in my life that would have made the depression go away, except the pill. That is crazy!
The last pill took about a week before I saw any side effects, so we will see what happens mid-week. But for today I am very thankful for no side effects! 🙂
Looking into the Future
Tom and I met with the oncologist today. I have been really anxious about this appointment – not sure why since it was just a checkup. I’m glad it’s over. 🙂
So looking into the future…
The pill I thought I was going to take for 10 years, I will be taking the rest of my life because the cancer has already spread once. He said we could talk about it again in 10 years, but wasn’t in favor of stopping it.
Quick update for the weekend
Quite a few people have asked how I’m feeling, so I thought I’d post a quick update.
I’ve been very consistent with exercising this week and my pain is much better. My body is throbbing a bit tonight, but it’s really the first time in a few days. I’m very thankful for that! I guess I’ll keep it up and see how it goes!
When You Don’t Like the Pill You Need to Take for 10 Years
Well, the title says a lot.
I don’t like the Arimidex I’m on.
My body hurts most of the time. 🙁
I sent a message to the Dr. and he had a few other suggestions besides what I was already doing. The main one he suggested was exercise – quite a bit more than I was planning on. He said that studies have shown it helps.
Rebranding Yourself after Cancer Treatments
I have no idea if you can technically rebrand yourself, but every time I go online and see pictures of myself, they don’t look like me.
It’s just another reminder of the hard journey I’m on.
Cancer has changed so many things. The most obvious one being my hair. Where it used to be longer than my shoulders and light brown, it’s now very short and dark brown. I look so different!
I felt like I needed to be rebranded.
It was time for some updated family photos!
I Survived the weekend
Well, I’m happy to report that I survived my one year cancerversary with no tears. There are still so many days and firsts to remember, but it is a huge relief to get that one out of the way. And just like I thought, the days leading up to it were far worse than the actual day.
My birthday was honestly, not a good day – a combination of many things. Next year, I think I will just skip it.
Moving on from that…
The Claritin seems to have helped the bone pain. Last night I was pretty sore, but other than that, it’s been much better. Now that the kids are back in school, I’m looking forward to walking on the treadmill at the gym a few mornings a week and focusing on taking care of our home and family. (Well, let’s be honest. I’m not looking forward to going to the gym it, but I’m going to do it because it’s good for me and I need to. I hate exercising. I would much rather eat dessert.)
Happy Cancerversary (and Birthday) to Me!
How lucky am I?
2 celebrations this weekend. My birthday is Saturday the 3rd and my 1 year Cancerversary is Sunday the 4th. (Another new word for you…cancerversary. You’re welcome.)
It’s really more like 1 celebration and 1 date that brings memories flooding to my mind.
Like most families, we have some back to school traditions and with each one this year, came the thought, “I had no idea this time last year that I would be fighting cancer the ENTIRE SCHOOL YEAR AND SUMMER!.”
A Pill A Day for 10 Years
Yay! I get to take a pill a day for the next 10 years.
It’s a tiny little white pill (Arimidex) but it should stop the adrenal gland from producing estrogen, which feeds the type of cancer I have.
The list of possible side effects is horrible. So I’ve decided to not think about them. This is my third day taking it and so far so good. (Although I have no idea when the side effects would kick in, if they did.) My body has responded better than expected to every single treatment so far, so I’m just going to plan it will respond the same with this pill until I have reason to think otherwise.
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Breast Cancer Patient, Chef Wife and Mom
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