It’s that time of year again…time for a scan. A PET scan to be exact.
I am so thankful I blogged throughout this journey, as I’ve been able to go back and see how I was feeling last year before my scan and remind myself that I did, in fact, survive Scanxiety 1.0 twelve months ago, and I’m sure I will survive Scanxiety 2.0 this week.
As I read back on what I was feeling a year ago, I am feeling pretty much the same way…anxious thoughts…pray…repeat…anxious thoughts….ouch my back is hurting again…pray…etc.
So the back pain is back (boo!!!!!) and that was not around last year, but the same anxious thoughts about the scan results are back. I felt perfectly fine when I was diagnosed with Stage IV Breast Cancer. I feel fine now (with the exception of the herneated disc). So where does that leave me? Trusting that God is control and will be with us no matter what the outcome is of the scan and remembering that worrying doesn’t help AT ALL!!
As I was hugging my husband a few minutes ago, I was wishing we could just jump ahead a week and that it was next Sunday…the scan would be over…we would know the results…and we could move on. Not knowing is hard. Guess I will be working on patience and contentment this week.
The scan in on Wednesday. We meet with my oncologist on Friday to get the results. I’m looking forward to seeing my husband more this week…yeah for dates at the doctors office right??
In the midst of the scanxiety, I am greeted with pink ribbons everywhere. October is not a fun month to be out and about if you have had breast cancer. The pink everywhere is a reminder that I’m part of this “club” that I never wanted to join. Don’t get me wrong…I am very thankful for all the research. But the pink EVERYWHERE is a constant reminder of the battle I am still fighting. And while the battle is more in my mind than physical body right now, it is still a battle.
I’ll post on Wednesday after the scan. Until then, please pray with us for God’s will…cancer or no cancer. Thanks friends!
Praying with you…..much love
Praying with you
Lord Jesus, I pray tonight that you embrace Jennifer in your almighty arms, giving her a peace and calmness that only You can give. Thank you for blessing my life with her friendship. In your name I pray, amen I love you friend!
Father we are all called to trust you every moment of every day. Allow Jennifer to lay her burdens and fears at your feet knowing how much you love and care for her. Use her as she lives out her faith to those who don’t know you. Make yourself known to her in supernatural was and give her great peace. Thank you Lord for all you are and how you work on our behalf.
Love to you Jennifer.
Lord Jesus I ask you to please carry Jennifer through this week.
Give her Your peace that passes understanding. Please give wisdom and direction as to how best to treat her back pain.
Strengthen her faith daily as she puts her trust in You! Amen
Praying that you can relax in peace that God is with you, in you, knows your every trouble and wants to remove your anxieties, Jennifer. Praying that God’s love will surround you and cushion you and help you through every step of this process. I love you, Jennifer.
May Your mercieS (plural, and I’m just gonna “guess” that they outnumber our need), which are new every morning, carry Jennifer and Tom and the girls through each day this week, and as they remember to pray…with thanksgiving, may Your peace stand guard over their hearts and minds…thank You, that You are a faithful and true God, and nothing in this life will ever bring us harm, if we only put our lives into Your hands ♥ what a Friend You are!! Amen ♥ your port sister 🙂
Lifting prayers up for you today and until you get your results…hugs Jennifer. Much love!
Prayers for you sweet Jennifer ❤️
Praying you get a good report!