It’s funny when people ask me how I’m doing. My answer is always the same.
I’m tired.
That’s my new normal. My body is physically tired ALL. THE. TIME.
The side effects seem to change from day to day as they come and go, but the fatigue is always there.
So if you ask me how I am, I’ll probably just say OK and just can just know that I’m tired, at least for the next two months.
A few people have asked me lately when my end date is for chemo. My last infusion is March 2nd. I go 6 more times. Yesterday marked the halfway point through this cycle.
Halfway.
Sometimes I think, “YAY!! I’m halfway done.” Other times, like Wednesday morning was I was so tired and had to get ready for chemo, I was thinking, “Only halfway? How am I going to make it through 6 more of these?”
Yesterday’s infusion seemed like an eternity. My port took 90 minutes to unclog. Thankfully the nurse suggested taking my labs from my arm so those could process while we waited for it to unclog. Then because my fingertips are hurting more when I put pressure on them (which I guess is another sign of peripheral neuropathy), the nurse called the Dr. and he reduced the amount of chemo I got yesterday to be careful the nerve issues don’t become permanent. This doesn’t prolong how long I will get chemo as the nurse said with this med, it matters more the consistency of it than the quantity. We see the Dr. on Tuesday, so we’ll talk to him more about it then and find out more,
As we look ahead to this week will you please pray for the following:
- That I will have patience with the girls when I’m tired (which you now know is all the time). I’m not a very good Mom when I’m tired and I need to work on that. Fortunately I have a few months of tired to learn and figure it out.
- That the pain in my fingertips will not get worse. Anytime I grab something with my fingers or open anything, it hurts (a granola bar wrapper, my blush container, the kickstand on the back of my computer, etc.). I ask for help if someone’s around, but it makes me feel old. 🙁
- We are still waiting to hear on the status of our financial aid application.
I’m so thankful for help from friends and family with laundry, meals and cleaning. I’m so glad to not be walking this journey alone!
If there is something specific I can pray for you, please email me and let me know!
So much to be thankful for . . .
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Than you my friend for the update. I check my phone constantly to make sure I’m praying the right way for you. On my mind and in my prayers constantly…
Thanks Linda. 🙂
Thank you for sharing your journey. You are an inspiration of courage and faith. We will be praying for your specific needs and for your precious family. What a blessing to have the hands and feet of Jesus in your many friends and family to help with the daily needs. Praying the Lord will bless and strengthen them and raise up more helpers. May the lord bless you with His perfect peace as you rest in Him.
Love, Jan
Continued prayers for you. I think about you all the time. My heart hurts so much for you. I love you. Why does the port clog so much do you know? Mine never did.
I have no idea why it clogs so much! My body must just be really good at healing and it just want to heal over this foreign thing! I’m going to talk to the Dr. about it again on Tuesday at my appointment and see what he says.
Sweet Jennifer, I continue to hold you in prayer, especially each Wednesday. You’ve passed the half-way mark. Praise His holy name. God continues to strengthen you during this trial. “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” Phil 4:13. May He continue to guide you through each day, filling you with His peace that surpasses all understanding and the patience of Job. 🙂
Love in Christ, Nancy
Thank you so much for the encouragement Nancy. I will remind myself of that verse next Wednesday morning when I don’t feel like going!
I will most definitely be praying for each of these requests and for your family also. i truly can’t imagine all you are going through but thank God that I can pray for you. ❤️
Thank you Denise. Praying for you as well! Hugs to you from Seattle to LA. 🙂
Prayers are continuing, your faith is amazing! Thanks for the updates
Thanks Karyn!
I will join with you in praying for these specific requests. May God bless you and keep you in the palm of His hand.
Thank you Bonnie! I was glad to read that your MRI is done and will be praying for peace for you as you await the results!
Oh, Jennifer, So sorry to hear that Wednesday was so tuff on you. Praying next Wednesday will be a bit brighter for you. Continually praying for you. I thank Jesus everyday because your faith in him is so strong. God Bless.