I have written a few versions of this post, but, keep deleting them. This is a hard one to write.
I have decided to stop active cancer treatment.
While my scans came back OK, my quality of life has gone downhill a lot in the past couple months while on this chemo.
What does stopping active cancer treatment look like? It means no more chemo. No more scans. No more blood tests. No more treatments of any kind to try and kill the cancer.
Sometime in the next week we will talk with a Hospice nurse and they will take over my care here at home. From now on, we will be focusing on keeping me comfortable. That sounds wonderful.
I am at peace with this decision, as is Tom. Neither of us are looking for other ways to fight this cancer. Thank you for respecting that.
Thank you for all the text messages today checking in on me and seeing how I am doing. Sorry I haven’t replied to all of them. I’m very tired today. I’m am doing fine. I don’t feel worried or anxious. I feel at peace.
I do have one request, if you see our girls in person, I would prefer you not to bring it up, unless they start talking about it with you. They know everything that is going on, but don’t always want to talk about it.
Thank you for praying for us and continuing to pray for us as we navigate the unknown ahead.
I will write more soon. But now it’s time to rest.
Love you, and keeping you in constant prayer, my dear sweet friend.
Prayers for all of you & all of those who love you. There is nothing easy except for Tom & you knowing what is best for the 5 of you.
Hugs to you all ❤
Love to all of you.
God be with always!
Please know, I’m praying for you and your family ❤️.. God bless. .
Sending love and hugs my dear friend. We’re always thinking of you and the girls. Xoxoxo
Praying for you and your family. This is not the end. It’s the beginning. Whatever happens, I will see you in this life or the next with God’s blessing. Love you!!
Definitely sending you love and prayers for your while family. ❤️❤️❤️
Love and prayers for all of you.
Sweet Jennifer, your unwavering faith is a light for so many. Keeping you all in prayer. Sending love and hugs.
I’m keeping you and your family in prayer. May God wrap you all in peace that passes understanding.
Thinking of you and your lovely family. Sending all of our love.
We haven’t met but I care deeply about your situation and will continue to pray for you and your family.
All the best to you and your family.
Jennifer, you continue to show Jesus to everyone who knows you. And we continue to pray for you, Tom, and the girls ❤ You are so loved.
Oh sweet friend. Praying for comfort. You have fought this battle valiantly. Praying for you all.
Sending you love and prayers for comfort.
Jennifer I am praying for all of you. Your bright light has touched so many of us. May our prayers help bring you and your family peace.
Prayers of comfort and strength for you, Tom and the girls. Love you. Big hugs ❤
I am grateful for God’s peace in your life and will keep praying for you and your family
Praying for you and your family, my dear friend. I love you. ❤️
I know this must have been a tough decision, but I am grateful you have peace with your choice. Praying your quality of life improves and that your pain will continue to subside. Praying for you and your family.
Dear Jen, you remain on my heart and in my constant prayers. May you sense God’s presence like never before. Much love to you, Tom and your precious girls.
Praying for you, Tom, and your girls.
I know this was a difficult decision to make. I am so proud of you and love you so much. Our continued prayers for all of you during this time.
Love Aunt Karen
Praying for you and your dear ones.
Praying for you and your family!
Praying for you and your family Jen. Complete comfort for you and quality time with your sweet girls.
Sending love, and praying without ceasing.
Continuing to keep you, Tom and your girls…and your dear Dad… in our thoughts and prayers. May you all feel surrounded by HIS love and may His peace be your peace…
Love and prayers to you all.
Lifting you and your family up in prayers!
You have fought long and hard, for your family and for your life. You are amazing! Remember that you are not giving up, you are putting yourself in the Saviour’s good hands, allowing Him to do what He deems best. The prayers have not ended, and the love will pour over you like a refreshing waterfall. It is time to relax. You have made a good and wise decision, though we hated to see this come. “Fear not,” says the Lord. It will be okay. Your family will eventually be okay. You will be healed, one way or the other! We send our warmest, longest hugs and prayers for freedom from pain and anxiety!
In His care,
Jim & Judy
At peace is a wonderful place to be. You are precious and a warrior. You and Tom are both so special to us! We love you.
We love you, Jen. God’s peace be with you.
Grateful for your peace and for Tom’s…praying for you both and your girls as you navigate these next steps. Love you Jen!
Sending you love and keeping you and your family in our prayers always.
Dear Jen
We send our love and prayers. You are an amazing young woman and you have fought this fight with such courage and grace. May God’s peace continue to rest on you gently as you keep on trusting Him. Sending BIG hugs.
Ralph and Joyce
I love you. We are praying for you and your precious family.
Oh sweet friend, continued prayers for peace that surpasses all understanding. I love you.
Praying for you, your husband and your girls! So thankful you are feeling peace! Much love to you all!
Oh dear Jennifer – thank you for once again sharing your journey with us – you are such a testimony and I am grateful to be allowed to pray for you and your family… much love and prayers for all of you. “underneath you are the everlasting arms and the eternal God is our refuge”… praying that your feel those everlasting arms around you in the days ahead.
God be with always!
Much love and prayers to all of you.
We Love you and Tom and your girls. Praying for you all ❤️
As I read this earlier this evening I had to think and pray. I thought of “Thank you Jesus” for what is and will be happening. The Hospice nurses are like angels. They not only take care of you but your family, now and latter on. You have made a very wise decision especially for your family. I will be praying that the Holy Spirit will be with all of you through this very special time. I send my love. Bob
I love you dear friends. You are in my heart all the time. Praying for the God of peace to strengthen and comfort you and all your family❤
Dear Tom and Jennifer, I can only imagine what it takes to make this decision. The fact that you are at Peace shows that it one you have talked about and pondered long before this doctors appointment and that the Holy Spirit is leading and guiding you. I pray that this next chapter will see improved quality of life for you, and special times between you and those that you love that will create precious memories for all. I will continue to pray for all 5 of you and for your Dad too. Your PA family loves you. Wendy.
I will continue to pray for you and your precious family! Enjoy your rest 🙂 So thankful you all know the Lord and can truly understand His perfect peace!
I will continue to pray that you will be free from anxiety, worry, fear
and pain. I pray that you will be filled with the peace, love and comfort that only our Heavenly Father can bring. Rest in His care for you and your precious family. You are an amazing woman of strength and character.
Praying for you . Prayers for Tom and girls . We love you . Hugs for you sweet Jennifer .♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️
Thank you so much for allowing us to walk thus journey with you. I will continue praying for God’s comfort for you and your family.
I am thankful for the peace God has given you. I’m praying for your comfort, your family and the time to come.
You’re a shining light of Jesus Christ.
Our prayers are with you. May God hold you and your family close!
Dear Jennifer, please know that I am praying for you! This HAS to have been a really difficult decision to make…but also a wise one. Praying that you, Tom and the girls have WONDERFUL times together, with good memories to keep. Praying too for the peace that passes ALL understanding for you all, and MUCH JOY!
God bless you and your family. Our prayers continue for you every day. May His peace and comfort be with you continually.
I held you the day you were born and I hold you tightly now and always. You are a part of me. Praying for you and your family. You have totally blessed tons of people who needed your precious words. Thank You
I am there holding you loving you. Aunt Sharon Jean
Love you Aunt Sharon!
My heart goes out to you and your family. I completely understand your decision. I know it would be mine, too, if i were in your shoes. The damage chemo creates is horrendous. My prayers for you and your family during this stage of your journey will never cease. May you continue to see God’s faithful and loving presence and provision in your life.
Much love to you Jennifer and your family.
Jennifer –
I am sure it was a very hard post to write… since it was also a hard post to receive and read… We love you all very much… and we will be praying for you and Tom and the girls a lot, as you navigate this time… We will be praying for your comfort, and for a sense of God’s peace and presence in your lives…
I am also so very thankful that all of you know that Heaven is Home and everything between now and then is totally in HIS hands. So many people have been blessed by your openness and all you have willingly shared…
Dear Jennifer, You and your precious family are on our hearts and in our prayers consistently. God is glorified through all you are going through because you love Him and trust Him with all your heart. We love you, Chuck and Bobbie
I love you more than anything sweetheart. I will be here with you through anything that is to come and I fear I will never be the same without you.
I love you. ❤
You are in my prayers Jennifer, along with Tom and your girls. I’ll pray for strength as you begin this next walk. Love always.
Praying for you. And Tom. And the girls.
Thank you for sharing your journey. Sending love. Always grateful for your graceful presence. I love watching you and the love you share with your precious family and community.
My heart is hurting for your sweet family. I am praying for you, Tom, and the girls.
Oh, my friend. So many prayers for the days ahead and for the peace to be yours day in and day out. Love you.
God be with you Small family! All of you.
I’m so certain this decision was made with every single angle being considered, weighed and prayed over. You have so much support and that will never change!!
Jennifer, I am so sorry for this difficult decision, but I rejoice in the peace that God has provided. You are loved.
Oh Jennifer I can only imagine how hard it was to make this decision. You have fought so hard for soo long! It’s time now to rest and enjoy your beautiful family. I am overjoyed that you feel peace and I will be praying that Tom and the girls will feel it too. I can not find the words to express how incredibly brave you are. May our Amazing God hold you all in His strong and loving arms as you go forward.
You are so brave and so loved. Praying for you and your sweet family. ♥️
You are so strong for making your decision and I am glad you are at peace. My thoughts are with you and your family during this transition. I’m wishing for pain free days for you soon. You’re an inspiration for sure and I appreciate you sharing your journey.
Jennifer,
Gary and I continue to uphold you in our prayers. So grateful that you are experiencing the peace that those who are in Christ know. We prayer also for His comfort and rest in the waiting.
“The steadfast of mind He will keep in perfect peace because he trusts in You. Trust in the Lord forever. For in God the Lord we have an everlasting Rock.” ⚓️❤️
Love you guys.
My prayers are that you will feel better and leave your family with those memories. I honestly would have made the same decision. God gives us chances to spend quality time with our love ones. I never met you but I will never forget you either! Prayers and peace to all
I just keep thinking of you and praying for you all. Reminded again of how precious and fragile life is, and how grateful I am to know you and watch you persevere with such grace and hope through this season. You are loved.
Love you, friend. I’m praying for you.
Peace be with you my friend! Thoughts and prayers! I consider you a friend and you have a piece of my heart, as do your girls and Tom! I hope you know you are an inspiration to all!
I will be praying for you! Thoughts and prayers!
Karen Paulson
Jennifer, When Heaven calls you to come home it will be a beautiful place. No more pain. You will get to see your girls grow up and you will be so proud of them, because they are a part of you. God bless you. I am Donna’s mother. I am so glad I got to know you.
Dearest Jennifer,
May God watch over you, Tom, and the girls. We are praying for you. Praying for strength and peace. Sending our love to you, Tom, and the girls. No more pain. Just love. ❤️
We have all been so blessed as you share your heart. May God doubly bless you and your family. Thank you for letting us walk this journey with you. We won’t stop praying.
My thoughts are with you and your family Jennifer.
Hi Jennifer!
I always smile and think of you when I turn on my windshield wipers. I remember us going to one of those Sunday Bel Canto concerts somewhere in the San Fernando Valley. You drove your white car and turned on the windshield wipers with the sprayer. We laughed as we thought about how others might think it was raining because of it. LOL 🙂 Such a fond and joyful memory. Thank you for that. <3 Praying for you and your family. <3
How funny. I don’t remember that but it totally sounds like something we would have laughed at!