I know I said I would post more about my emotions and how I’m feeling after my last scan, but I’m still not feeling great and that’s going to be a longer post. So here’s a quick update on how I’m feeling.
I’m still trying to figure out that constipation medicine. I need the full strength of it but my body can’t handle it all at once. So today I took half a pill this morning and I’m going to take half a pill right before I go to bed. Hopefully I will be able to sleep. If not, I will get through a lot of episodes of Heartland.
This pill would make life so much easier, so I am pretty motivated to figure out a way to make my body tolerate it. It’s just not very enjoyable. The worst side effect, besides the cramping, is feeling super sweaty, cold and weak all at the same time. The website says it can cause symptoms of opioid withdrawal, which I think is what’s happening. I’m not actually having a withdrawal just the symptoms of it. It’s pretty horrible.
The pain patches seemed to be working okay. I’m still having to take some oxycodone a few times a day but not around the clock and not as many. Part of me wonders if the pain I’m having now has to do with the constipation medicine I’m trying to take. I won’t totally know until I figure out that one. I have a Telehealth appointment tomorrow with my palliative care doctor so I will get her thoughts on that.
I think I’ve decided to continue on with this current chemo. More on that later.
Thank you for continuing to pray. And for those of you that have messaged and have either not gotten a response, or received a very late response, thank you for understanding. There have been times the past few days when lifting my hand to my mouth to eat something was just too much.
Throughout the difficulties, I look at my girls and I am so thankful that the Lord allows me to be their mother.
And Tom….he is the most caring, tender, amazing man. He is my best friend and takes such good care of me. Whoever my future son-in-laws are, I hope they are up for the task, because Tom is setting the most amazing example for them as to what a godly husband and father looks like. Our girls are going to have high expectations!
This picture shows the most exciting thing that happened today (at least for me). Tom pushed our beds back together. So this is a picture I took in my bed with Tom’s bed right next to mine. The bar is still in the middle so I can get up easier. We decided to try it with the bar first. We’ll see if it stays there or not.
When I came home from the hospital in October and was really struggling to get in and out of bed, we had separated the beds so we could put bars on both sides to help me get in and out.
I’m not a huge snuggler when I want to sleep. Neither is he. But I felt too far away from him and I didn’t like it. This makes me happy.
Who knows if it will stay like this for forever, but for now, I look forward to being able to kiss my husband good night when we are both in bed. ❤
A blessings just being able to kiss your husband goodnite in the same bed. WOW – so many things we just take for granted & not even give it a second thought. Thank you for reminding us of just one more thing we have to be thankful for. Prayers continue for you and for your telehealth appt tomorrow. Much love
Sending you lots of hugs from me! (You’ll have to rely on Tom for the kisses. lol) Take care, dear friend!
Praying for you and your sweet family.
So glad for the good things that are happening. I continue to pray for you all the time.
When it is the darkest the light shines the brightest.
I totally get how you feel about going to sleep with your hubby next to you. When mine was going through a lot of issues and finally multiple surgeries, he was sleeping in the spare room for awhile to make sleeping easier, but i felt so alone. I fall asleep so much better being able to hear his breathing and even his snoring ☺. It’s the little things that some times make the biggest difference.
I think “continue on” are such encouraging words. I don’t think you know the impact you have on other peoples (mine) by your “confessions of a cancer patient”. With the candid updates you give no matter how dire it gets I can hear the love of Jesus in them and your joy when you get out with your family. It encourages me so much to enjoy my kids so much more and see the love of Jesus in my life—which maybe I forget sometimes. These posts of yours are life changing to people— God is using you mightily. My guess is the medical personnel you see and work with would say the same thing. Praying for a good poop at this time and no need for meds to make that happen.
Jen! I love the view of the gorgeous pics of all of you, even Oliver the dog! God brings you to mind multiple times a day! Love you so much!!! #morethanmanysparrows ✨
Love,
Hil
To sweet Jennifer. Prayers going up for and your wonderful family. Your updates tell us how the pray. Blessings to you all.
Continuing praying for you,Tom and the girls. You are a amazing family. Thinking and praying daily for you Jennifer.
We continue to pray on your behalf to our most gracious , wise, powerful and loving God. I always knew you had a wonderful, caring, loving and godly husband. Praise God for him! we are praying that the Lord will strengthen and encourage Tom each day as he cares for you and his sweet family. May you all experience the tender mercies of our Heavenly Father this week.
Love,
Jan
Jennifer, I am so happy that you have a wonderful husband to care for you. That means so much. He loves you a lot. Each day you get to see you girls. I am so glad they can be home schooled right now. Then you have your little sweet puppy to love you and give you kisses. I pray for your comfort. I go to Virginia Mason tomorrow for a PET SCAN. Just to make sure my cancer has not come back. Then go to Donna’s for a hair cut and perm. Blessings to you my dear. Carol Moser