My CT scan is scheduled for next Wednesday, the 30th. 2 days later on October 2nd, we have a telehealth appointment with Dr. Leung to find out the results.
Yesterday was the hardest day I have had in a while. Physically I struggled to get up and do anything, and I was an emotional mess. Chemo and the steroid were making my face very flushed and it felt like it was on fire. Looking back at the day, I should have taken some medicine to help me calm down. I finally did at 7pm and went to bed really early.
Mentally I have been preparing for my next scan to be in late November. To find out that it’s next week was a little bit of a shock. I’ll be glad to know if the chemo is working, but every scan we’ve done since October has not been good.
I’m not ready to have another bad scan. I’m not ready for another discussion of what chemo we move on to next. I don’t want to continue to make things harder on my family, especially my husband. I don’t want to look at my calendar, not knowing if I will be able to do anything on it until the morning of. I just don’t want to be sick anymore. I just want to feel good and have a lot of energy so I can be like one of those crazy people who is reorganizing their house after watching The Home Edit. Seriously. Do you know how much I love organizing?
I’m thankful that today is a little better than yesterday. I’ve been out of bed sitting in the recliner. Cortney and I discussed our James Bible study over video chat. I’ve done a few loads of laundry. I changed out the hangers in my closet. I swapped summer and winter clothes in my closet. I tried to help with some geometry. I prioritized my to do list. I put up a few fall decorations. I wrote a few letters. Each one of those things took a very brief amount of time. Between each of them I had to sit down and rest because I was very out of breath. But, I got somethings done and I’m very thankful!
As you pray for our family this week, will you please pray for peace in our home. Please continue to pray for the girls as they do school from home. Pray for Tom as he manages everything. Pray that as I parent in the midst of pain, my words will be gracious and kind. Pray that I will not worry about the scan coming up next week.
Also, thank you to everyone who helps provide meals for us a couple times a week. It is very helpful! October dates are up on the calendar if you are able to help.
Lifting you all up in prayer right now. Love you.
Praying for you and for peace in your home!
Jennifer I love you so much. You are amazing!! What a wonderful witness you are for our Lord and such a great example for your girls. Praying that our miracle is happening and that you can have some peace. Of course I’m praying for Tom and the girls too. God be with you.
So glad for those good times even they are short. I do continue to pray for you and your family.
No words this time – just prayers – continually.
Love and prayers to all of you my friend
Praying continually Jennifer, morning noon and night and in between. Every time the Spirit brings you and your family to mind⚓️
Praying for the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding to guard your heart and your mind in Christ Jesus.
Lisa❤️
Aunt Sharon has her arms tightly around you not too tight
You are such a godly woman and share the Lord with every thing you do We are praying for you so so much. Your Sweet Mother is there with you and she is so very proud of you . May the blood of Our Lord Jesus Christ cover you with comfort
Hi Jennifer – you are often on my mind and I am praying for peace in you home, relief from the pain, and quality time with your family. Through all of this you may not realize your ministry of encouragement to be steadfast in our faith… that it is right and good to lean on the Lord. May he fill you comfort and peace today!
Praying for all your needs Jennifer. So glad you were able to accomplish so much today. God in His mercy and grace gave you the strength now may He grant you His perfect peace.
Love,
Jan
Continually praying for that miracle. You are special. Glad to hear that you had a rather successful day. Praise the Lord.