Below was my prayer journal entry this morning. I decided to share it instead of writing it all out again. There are a few things I’m taking out……..out of respect for my family. 🙂

Lord, this is a hard week coming up. I had trouble getting to sleep last night because I was thinking about everything coming up. I also kept waking up last night thinking about all of it.

I have an MRI on my lower back on Tuesday and then we find out the results on Thursday. That will tell us if the orthopedic surgeon can help with the pain, if I need physical therapy or if it’s just the cancer causing the pain and I need to work with Dr. Leung on it.

I’m also going to be calling around to find out about driving insurance rates for Sage……..Molly is going to get braces on before the end of the year as well…….

I am increasing my dose of chemo today. I will take 2 pills in the morning and 3 at night. This increases my chance of hand/foot syndrome and I’m scared about that. Lord, I pray You will keep that side effect away if that would be Your will. If not, I pray I will be able to manage it without too much pain.

I have to call and make my 3 month CT scan. God, please help this chemo pill to be working. I really don’t want to go on IV chemo again. (*Scan scheduled for 7/23 – results from the Dr. on 7/28)

America is falling apart. There are so many horrible things going on. COVID, fighting about wearing masks, the upcoming election, the Black Lives Matter movement with protests and looting and government and citizens not supporting the police. The list goes on and on. Please return soon and put an end to it all! Please give me courage to share the Gospel with others so that when You return, my friends will know the truth and be in heaven.

Tom’s work is so stressful right now….COVID is making thing things so hard for the restaurant industry. He has so much to do around the house because I am so limited in what I can do. I know he’s worried about my health and what will happen when I’m gone……Please help him to talk to me if I can be an encouragement to him, and if he does, please help me to be a good listener and not just add to the list of things I am worrying about.

And there’s a few things that seem trivial compared to the above – Sage needs shorts and a bathing suit. We are struggling to find ones that fit……..She’s tried so many on. We’ve spent tons of money and returned everything. We are going to try to make shorts out of some of her jeans that are too short. Lord, please help that to work today if that would be Your will. If not, please give us guidance on where to find these things. You know my physical limitations……

I unloaded all of this on Tom right as he woke up and I feel horrible about that. I’m sure that was not a helpful thing to do as he starts his work day.

Lord, overall, please help me not to worry. I don’t want worry to rob me of my joy in You. Please help me to remember that my joy is in You and my hope is in You. This is not permanent. Earth is not my final home. I want to enjoy the day and not spend all my time worrying.

Lord, please bring to mind verses of encouragement to me today as I rest and have time to think. Please help me not to worry. I know You are in control of everything and that You will only allow things to happen that are part of Your plan. Please help me to trust You and not worry.

Matthew 6:25-34
25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes?

26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?

27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?

28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin.

29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these.

30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith?

31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’

32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them.

33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

THANK YOU for caring enough to read this whole post. Please understand that the above was my prayer to God this morning. I am not looking for pity or for anyone to solve my problems. I would love for you to pray with us. And if you think about it throughout the week, I would love texts or emails with verses that have been encouraging to you during difficult times. No need to say anything else, just copy and paste the verse and hit send. 🙂 Thanks friends.

Here’s a few pictures from our staycation this weekend.

Exploring low tide at Dash Point State Park this weekend (Tom’s idea for a family selfie)
Family car selfie – Tom’s idea (twice in two days – CRAZY!!!!)
We took the girls to dinner at Goldfinch Tavern at the Four Seasons Hotel this weekend. It was nice to get dressed up a little (out of pajamas), put makeup and shoes on, and have some scenery besides our house and yard. The food was wonderful and it was fun to watch the girls as they tried a few new things.