I took 5ml of the oxycodone this morning and that’s it! I’ve been able to eat and drink all day. I’m not eating much, but it’s still progress. The Dr. said I would wake up one morning and it would be significantly better and I guess today was the day!
In other news….because we couldn’t just have one thing be resolved without something new beginning, right? That would be too nice and easy. Pretty severe depression hit me this morning. I could feel it coming on yesterday but this morning was like I was hit by a truck with it. I sobbed off and on most of the morning, including during the part of the church service I was there for. Tom asked me multiple times if I was ok and all I could say was no and I started crying more. Ugh. I’m sure it’s pretty hard to be married to me right now. I am a mess.
It’s that depression where I’m just down, everything is sad, nothing to look forward to, nothing sounds fun to do, nothing sounds good to eat, I can’t think of anything that would make things better except dying and I just want to lay in my bed and cry. That pretty much sums it up.
This isn’t new to Tom and I and we know it’s from the drugs – although not sure if it’s from the shot or chemo pill. I was able to battle the depression with supplements before, but for the past week, I haven’t been able to take them because I wasn’t eating enough. I started them back up this morning. I’m doing a little better tonight….I’ve moved off the bed and am not sobbing constantly. I’m going to try to get in to see my oncologist on Tuesday when we are up at Valley. I don’t have an appointment for 2 more weeks, but I think it would be a good idea to see him sooner if possible.
I’m going to stay low key for most of the week, but I’m looking forward to being able to drive again now that I’m off the narcotic. I’m still really tired, so I’ll keep the driving to a minimum, and I’m hoping that the severe tiredness will ease up a bit this week.
Thanks for reading and praying.
Praying for you! Thanking God for your pain relief and ability to eat some again. My story is not the same as yours and I don’t know what it’s like to be in your shoes. I’ve battled depression and generalized anxiety disorder most of my life. If I can be of any support please don’t hesitate to contact me. I know a simple walk in fresh air can do wonders and pray you’ll have the energy for that.
Praying for you to be comforted Jennifer and to get some relief from this depression quickly!
I missed seeing you at church today…I wish it was easy to do or say something to ease the depression and sorrow you are experiencing. I’m glad you can speak so freely about it so we now how to be specific in our prayers for you all.
If I can come alongside you in any other way to help, I am willing.
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Jennifer I am praying that the depression leaves you quickly. There have been times i was depressed hormone changes were some of the worst. How is your neurophy pain.i now have
Praying for you Jennifer. Thanking the Lord that you are once again able to eat.
Jennifer- so thankful that you are able to eat again- even a little. I can’t imagine how you feel with this depression but I do know how it feels to be married to someone going through it. Fred has the same problem after his brain surgery. He’s not a crier so when that’s all he could do it was hard to watch knowing I couldn’t do anything to make it better- except of course to pray. It took medication adjustments and then better. I understand that we weren’t dealing with anything like you are but as I pray for you I will also pray for Tom during this – We appreciate you sharing these struggles and side effects with us so that we can pray more specifically. We love you Jennifer. Praying you can see oncologist today and that the supplements help with this depression
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I’m so happy for you to be able to swallow without pain and now can eat and enjoy food! Truly you are to be commended for your example of suffering where God has you. I so pray for God to heal your body fully and completely for His glory!
Lifting you up in my prayers right now. Praying the depression is lifting some…huge hugs.