I took 5ml of the oxycodone this morning and that’s it! I’ve been able to eat and drink all day. I’m not eating much, but it’s still progress. The Dr. said I would wake up one morning and it would be significantly better and I guess today was the day!
In other news….because we couldn’t just have one thing be resolved without something new beginning, right? That would be too nice and easy. Pretty severe depression hit me this morning. I could feel it coming on yesterday but this morning was like I was hit by a truck with it. I sobbed off and on most of the morning, including during the part of the church service I was there for. Tom asked me multiple times if I was ok and all I could say was no and I started crying more. Ugh. I’m sure it’s pretty hard to be married to me right now. I am a mess.
It’s that depression where I’m just down, everything is sad, nothing to look forward to, nothing sounds fun to do, nothing sounds good to eat, I can’t think of anything that would make things better except dying and I just want to lay in my bed and cry. That pretty much sums it up.
This isn’t new to Tom and I and we know it’s from the drugs – although not sure if it’s from the shot or chemo pill. I was able to battle the depression with supplements before, but for the past week, I haven’t been able to take them because I wasn’t eating enough. I started them back up this morning. I’m doing a little better tonight….I’ve moved off the bed and am not sobbing constantly. I’m going to try to get in to see my oncologist on Tuesday when we are up at Valley. I don’t have an appointment for 2 more weeks, but I think it would be a good idea to see him sooner if possible.
I’m going to stay low key for most of the week, but I’m looking forward to being able to drive again now that I’m off the narcotic. I’m still really tired, so I’ll keep the driving to a minimum, and I’m hoping that the severe tiredness will ease up a bit this week.
Thanks for reading and praying.