A friend asked the other day if I was still blogging or if she had missed the emails…nope. Just not blogging as much. I’m still here. 🙂
Unfortunately I’m struggling with pain right now.
My Dr. is calling the pain that I’m having a flare-up of side effects from the hormone blocking pill I’m taking (for the rest of my life…ugh…). He said sometimes that just happens and it’s hard to know what triggers it. Wish I knew because I would MAKE SURE to stop whatever is triggering this pain.
I’ve had this throbbing bone pain off and on for the past 4 days. It comes on at different times of the day. I woke up with it this morning. It went away after some Tylenol and a few hours and now it’s back (1:40 pm). It’s hard to push through it when I’m alone with the girls. Please pray they are in good moods after school and feel like doing homework, practicing the piano and working on AWANA verses AND that the pain will be gone again by then.
I go in for another infusion on Wednesday. I’ve been taking a baby aspirin every day, so I’m praying that helps with the clogging problem I keep having. I will keep you posted. 🙂
I’ve been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster lately, which I think is circumstantial, not medical. I’m sure many of you can relate…those times when you feel like you are failing in so many areas of your life…parenting, wifeing, etc. Add the onset of pain, which reminds me of this cancer journey I would rather not be on, some tears because…well…I don’t know. I’m just emotional.
That’s my life lately.
In other news, Tom’s restaurant group is doing a HUGE menu change tomorrow and along with that comes a new POS system, new menu boards, new website (which I was able to do – yay!), and a bunch of other stuff that I don’t know about. Life has been crazy for him and a bit more for me as I redesigned the website. The girls’ have had a lot of productions and concerts lately and those are finally done. This week I’m thankful for just piano lessons and AWANA. Maybe we’ll actually be able to relax a little in the evening after dinner.
Sorry if this post is a bit random…a little stream of consciousness writing for today I guess.
I call it the “new normal”, but the cancer treatment has changed me (and others, I surmise) in so many ways…my current thing is stiffness in my joints, which comes and goes for no apparent reason/time of day/etc. and so I “understand” and know that God knows better than us what’s going on and what to do/how to adapt to our “new normal”. Having you write, though, reminds me to continue to pray, so thank you for “checking in” via the blog/website ♥ We have to rely on Him for much more than we ever did, and more often than we anticipated…but, He promises to meet our needs, and where He doesn’t strengthen, He promises to give us grace…nothing better than that…well, except for a glorified body in Heaven away from sin and pain and death…keep pressing on friend!! ♥ your port sister
I’m sorry that pain has reared it’s ugly head again…along with the inevitable uneasiness.Praying that it is short-lived and easily managed and that life will ‘settle down” soon.
I am not fighting the cancer journey and I go on an emotional roller coaster. I know I have so much to be grateful for and it frustrates me that I can get in the dumps. But I feel part is being a woman and the responsibilities we have, which can get us feeling overwhelmed pretty easily, and the other, God made us emotional beings. Tears are a way of washing some of those hard to deal with feelings away and God then shines bright once again. I know that you are a super wife and an amazing mother. DO NOT feel inadequate in those areas. You are a wonderful example of love and commitment and you are a blessing to anyone who knows you. Summer is coming, school year commitments will be done and the fun can begin! Hang in there precious friend. May you feel God’s peace that passes all understanding. HE IS OUR ROCK!!
That emotional roller coaster I know it well. I am so sorry for the pain that isn’t helpful. I saw my doctor because been struggling with my diabetes one day up next day almost normal making me nuts along with other things the reason I mentioned it is because I have not seen this doctor before and she said I am a bundle of stress I said how can you tell she says there an auora (?) around you. You are a strong and beautiful person this is our new normal we will not be the same thanks to cancer,I had to learn a new normal when I lost my son now again with cancer. That ugliness is always ther. I love you Jen. God is on our side
Extra prayers for you at this time. I see so much strength in you which is from Him. Praising His care for you
Praying for you this morning as I read your post. Praying the pain will subside.
As far as the emotional roller coaster, Jen, I can relate. I feel like I fail in being a wife, mother, friend, Christian every single day. I know, and hope you do too, that this is not entirely our fault- it’s mostly due to our physical pain. Don’t let the enemy discourage you. We’re doing the best we can. 🙂
You are one very busy lady. Don’t forget to take some relaxing time for yourself. Prayers your appt. will be easier on you. Prayers your pain will be less stress on you. Take care.