I’m not sure how much longer I can handle this chemo pill. There are many days the fatigue and total body weakness is so bad I struggle to get out if bed. I lost another 2 pounds this week. I’m not sure what to do.
I have occasional good days. A few days last week I was out of bed a lot and able to help the girls with school. Mother’s Day, I had enough strength to go with Tom and the girls to a state park for a few hours for lunch. It was nice to do something that feet normal.
The bad days are hard. The fatigue is crazy. No amount of rest helps. It’s miserable laying in bed seeing things I could do to help around the house, but physically can’t. Is this medicine really worth it? I won’t know if it’s working till we do another scan, in July.
I had a bit of a melt down the night before mother’s day because lately I have been able to do so few things that I normally would as a Mom. It’s so hard.
I am very discouraged right now.
We have a telehealth appointment with my oncologist tomorrow so we’ll talk about all of this with him. I’m not sure what the outcome will be, but this is not much of a life to live.
I’m so sorry Jen.. I know there is nothing to say, just sending you so much love and many, many prayers..
Jennifer, I struggle to find the right words to say. It must be so hard, so many decisions to make, so many varied emotions…just so much. I can only pray that in the midst of it all, you hear that still small voice saying, I love you, you are amazing, I AM. Praying for you this morning. Wendy
Jennifer I can’t find the words for the pain I feel in my heart. The only words that come to me are I love you. ❤️
I love you so much. You are an amazing woman, wife, mother, teacher, and friend. Please don’t beat yourself up. The Lord knows your heart and your girls and Tom know it too. All my love.
Dear Jennifer, my heart goes out to you, the fatigue I’ve had gives me a hurting heart for you and I pray earnestly for God’s help in guiding the doctors and bringing strength and encouragement to you! In Christ’s love, Bobbie
I’m so sorry you’re discouraged. I can’t imagine what it must be like. I’m glad you got out for a little bit. You and your girls are beautiful. Love you
I’m sooo sorry I can’t just carry your liad for awhile so you can be free to be a mom to your daughters. I’ m praying for you and love you!
Sweet friend, I love you so much and pray for God’s direction and clarity.
I’m sending you lots of love and keeping you and your family in my prayers. Blessings on you and positive thoughts for you to feel better.
Shanna
My heart goes out to you for this daily challenge you face. Thankful for the time your family spent together for Mother’s Day ❤ love seeing the picture of all the beautiful ladies. Praying for all of you
Take Care
As I pray for you I feel the love of Jesus for you but you wish you could feel more of His love. I continue to pray for all of you.
Jennifer- I’m thankful that you were able to enjoy your family on Mother’s Day even for a little while. – but I’m so sorry to hear how hard this is for you. I am praying for you, your family and your dr appt. Trusting God to guide all your decisions and give you His perfect peace.
Love Denise Shultz (CCC)
Dear friend….my heart aches for you and your family… I continue to bring you to the throne of grace every time I am reminded of you! love you so very much!
Such a valiant warrior are you! Praying for God to provide wisdom and direction to you. May your troubled heart find peace and the raging waters which surround you be silenced as you hear His voice saying, “Hush, be still.” ❤️ For He Himself knows our frame; He is mindful that we are but dust.
I am thankful you got to spend some time outside with your family for Mother’s Day. Praying for you and your family!
Sending you waves of love and hope. I so wish you weren’t suffering this way. July is less than two months away thought. You are a true warrior of love for going through this! You are an amazing woman. Thank you for sharing all your vulnerabilities with us, your honesty, your true self, because believe me, it gives all the rest of us encouragement and permission and the strength to do so as well, so that we, too, can improve our relationships and legacies. You ARE making a difference, I promise you. Thank you for all you do.
I’m so sorry, Jennifer, and I’m praying for you. Thank you for sharing this with us, and know that my thoughts are with you often. Praying for strength and renewed health, and answers from the doctors. Hugs to you, dear friend.
Jennifer. there are no words that I can say other than we continue to pray for you and your precious family. We love you and ask for our Lord to fill you with joy, hope, peace and strength as you face each day.
Just sending love and prayers to you and your precious family. I am so thankful for your time out on Mother’s Day. Praying for your telehealth call.
Sending you my love and keeping you in my daily prayer, Jennifer!
We are praying for you — for strength, energy, less pain and good rest — and sending you love.
Jennifer, we continue to pray for you but sometimes it’s hard to know exactly how to pray for what you need. Thank you for being specific and letting us know the areas you’re currently struggling with so we can focus on those during our prayer times. Oh, my sweet pink sister, my heart aches for you. You’re so brave to continue with the medication but I hope you are able to discuss with your oncologist the possibility of discontinuing so you can enjoy a better quality of life, even if just for a short time. As a mother, I understand how your heart aches to meet the needs of your family but know they love you so much, no matter what. God bless you and may He be your continual source of strength during these hard, hard days. Love and many prayers, Bonnie
I pray for you every day, and every night I pray that the next day will bring some relief. Love, Charlene
Jennifer, I can’t begin to imagine what you are going through. I’m so sorry and will continue to bring you before the Lord in prayer trusting that He will give you everything you need just when you need it. So glad you were able to go out with your family for Mother’s Day.
Love, Jan