I’m not sure how much longer I can handle this chemo pill. There are many days the fatigue and total body weakness is so bad I struggle to get out if bed. I lost another 2 pounds this week. I’m not sure what to do.
I have occasional good days. A few days last week I was out of bed a lot and able to help the girls with school. Mother’s Day, I had enough strength to go with Tom and the girls to a state park for a few hours for lunch. It was nice to do something that feet normal.
The bad days are hard. The fatigue is crazy. No amount of rest helps. It’s miserable laying in bed seeing things I could do to help around the house, but physically can’t. Is this medicine really worth it? I won’t know if it’s working till we do another scan, in July.
I had a bit of a melt down the night before mother’s day because lately I have been able to do so few things that I normally would as a Mom. It’s so hard.
I am very discouraged right now.
We have a telehealth appointment with my oncologist tomorrow so we’ll talk about all of this with him. I’m not sure what the outcome will be, but this is not much of a life to live.