I feel like I might sound like a broken record.
Anxiety.
It’s horrible.
I’m really struggling with it, most of the day, everyday.
Sometimes it seems to come out of nowhere.
Sometimes I can’t even tell you what I’m anxious about.
Yesterday I ended up in a full blown panic attack, for the first time, where I could hardly breathe because I couldn’t calm down. That was scary. Fortunately Tom was right there with me. The nebulizer and Alprazolam helped.
My mind is powerful. Even thinking about what brought on the panic attack yesterday makes me tear up and makes my heart start beating quickly.
It was nothing new. Honestly it was just more of the same and how it’s affecting my family.
I feel like my new norm is just having this anxious feeling in my stomach all the time. I don’t know why. Nothing has changed.
I used a sleep app and some meds to help calm down this afternoon and woke up from my nap feeling calm again.
I had an appointment with my counselor late last week and she helped me understand exactly what my anti-anxiety medicine does in my body. It helps by lowering the level of adrenaline in my body so that I can think clearly. I still wish I didn’t need it but I’m thankful that that medicine is available to help me during this hard time right now.
In other news, chemo went great today and I was in and out of the infusion center quicker than I ever have been. That was nice. It was also a beautiful sunny day!
Broken record or not, your honest updates help us know how to pray for you. Anxiety sucks. Panic attacks are debilitating. Will be praying for you.
Dear Jennifer… continuing to keep you and yours in my thoughts and prayers. Are you familiar with the song “He Giveth More Grace”? If not, google the words…I think of this song when I read your posts. Please know God is using you in ways you may never know. Thank you for sharing your heart and your journey with us…
Thankful for your ability to work through your challenges and see the beautiful day. Peace be with you!
Ugh, anxiety stinks. Mine started with menopause. Could your hormones be a factor? Thank heaven for Alprazolam. I pray that you can find relief, my friend. <3
Ditto…was going to post the exact same thing. Praise God for His ultimate knowledge and care through these very difficult struggles. Listening to the Psalms (audioBible or have someone read to you) can also be a great comfort. Will continue to pray diligently!
This is so normal but that sure doesn’t help. Keeping the medication balanced is hard. Sometimes the best thing was prayer and I assure you I am praying for you.
Lots of love and prayers
So happy you were able to get through the anxiety . Anxiety is one that is so hard to control. Our prayers are continuing for you Jennifer. Thank you for all the update.
Deep breathing helps me as well as reminding myself of scripture verses that calm me down. Meds help too. I’m glad Tom was there to get you through it-if you have one and he’s not home, you can call me and I’ll pray you through it, if you’d like. I’ll PM you my number. Love you.
Romans 12:12
Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction and faithful in prayer.
Praying for you daily.
Praying for a peaceful day today!
I’m praying for you and your family Jennifer. I pray the anxieties of life don’t overwhelm you and that God will meet every need, both yours and your family’s. Thanks for sharing and being so transparent with your battles. ❤️
Thankyou for sharing your struggles so honestly dear Jennifer, we continue to pray for you and the family! We love you, Chuck and Bobbie
For some reason I am not getting you “leaving cancer behind” email lately. Could you please add me back on.
Keeping you and your family in prayer Jennifer. I wish we lived closer to help❤️
All because of His grace,
Diane Laicans