I’m not a big printed t-shirt fan, but when I saw this one late last year, I knew I needed it because of this cancer journey I am on.
This verse is printed on the back:
Lamentations 3:22-26
22 Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.
23 They are new every morning;
great is Your faithfulness.
24 I say to myself, “The Lord is my portion;
therefore I will wait for Him.”
I’m not sure why, but this infusion was hard on me emotionally. I’m annoyed that my port is clogged EVERY SINGLE TIME. I’m annoyed that I have to go to the infusion center (even though I enjoy seeing the nurses and catching up with them). I’m annoyed that I was diagnosed with Stage IV breast cancer. These infusions are a reminder of what a hard year it was. All those thoughts can really consume you if you let them.
Even though I feel great most of the time, some days it really just hits me that I am still on this journey. Yesterday I was told by all 3 girls at different times that I was being mean. I let my thoughts and worries get the best of me and I was discouraged and depressed. It was not my best parenting day.
I just love this shirt and verse. I needed to wear it today so each time I look down at the line coming out my port, I’m reminded that I don’t need to be consumed by these worries. God’s compassion never fails. He is all I truly need.
Today I had a room to myself, with the exception of about 10 minutes when someone came in for a shot. The infusion center is quiet today. I ventured down the hall for about a half an hour as I waited to have my port unclog and visited with Siri and Ravi, a sweet couple I met last time I was here. Siri is going through chemo for breast cancer and surgery is coming soon. We exchanged phone numbers and I look forward to keeping in contact with them. 🙂
My infusion is done…I was only here for a little over 2 hours. That’s not too bad! I’m not sure why God allowed my port to be clogged again, but I’m thankful for the chance to see Siri and Ravi again and hope to be able to encourage them in the future!
I bought that same shirt! Only mine is teal. Love it! I’m sorry your port was clogged again. Praying for you. Look forward to seeing you soon.
Twins!! 🙂
I am glad you shared that you were annoyed! Hopefully it helps some to share your very human emotions and even how you wonder why God allows certain things. But the bottom line is you come back to the truth that God’s compassion never fails and He is all you truly need!!! AMEN! HE IS YOUR ROCK!! So enjoyed seeing you last week. You looked and sounded SO GREAT! Hugs!
So glad we had a chance to catch up! 🙂 Hugs to you too!
I love you Jen. You grind myself in the same position . I feel I become hostile as I watch others with their normal life and I have 3 more years of of blood test and Ct scans . Cancer changes you . You are a beautiful person and one day of a little meanness isn’t so bad after what you’ve been through. Your tired take some time for yourself, remember be gentle to yourself. I love you and who you are.
I’m thankful you shared this post. As cancer survivors, sometimes we’re hard on ourselves and feel like we always have to keep a pleasant demeanor and positive outlook on life. One thing I’ve learned through my journey is we’re allowed to have bad days and when we do, when we become a little grouchy or gruff, it’s okay. We’re only human. And most other days, we’re working hard to keep that stiff upper lip and let Jesus shine out of us for others to see.
I love the shirt and would love to know where I could get one! What a great reminder! God is still using you to minister to others and I’m thankful for you.
Here’s where I got the shirt Bonnie – https://store.notconsumed.com/products/notconsumed-t-shirt?variant=25705720328
Thankful for you too!
Great reminder to not be worried or consumed with doubt and fear, but to trust God. I feel the same way many days. Our kids love us enough to be honest even if it stings but are forgiving and ready for hugs. So thankful for kind, caring nurses to put a smile on your face. I may have to get a t-shirt for Nat or myself as a reminder that we are not to be consumed with the problems of this life. Thanks so much for sharing.
Keep pressing on,
Lisa Gilliam