Radiation Day 1


That one word pretty much sums up radiation day 1.

I was in the room less than 15 minutes.  We waiting around to talk to the Dr. (who I meet with every week).  He was in the room for about 30 seconds since we didn’t have any questions.  Haha!  He greeted us, logged into the computer and glanced at it for a second. Then he asked us if we had any questions.  We said no.  That was it.  Seriously, 30 seconds.

Backing up a few hours…I slept horrible last night.  I kept waking up.  I finally got up around 5:20 and tears starting flowing as I thought about what was coming.  Not tears of fear, but of sadness that I had to go through it, even if it is easier than chemo and surgery.  It’s still something and it’s an every day something for what seems like a very long time.

As I spent time in God’s Word early this morning, Isaiah 26:3 was an encouragement to me.  “You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on You because he trust in You.” 

A note card with this verse on it is sitting on my kitchen counter as a reminder to keep my thoughts on the Lord and not on the machine that will be zapping me 33 more times.


I got a tattoo this morning

I got a tattoo this morning.  Well actually two of them.  They are just little dots.  Nothing special.  Supposedly they look like a freckle, but THERE ARE SO MANY SHARPIE MARKS ON ME, I can’t really see them very well yet.  Sigh.

This morning, I had my measurement appointment for radiation.

I started off in the gown changing room, where I put on a very stylish hospital gown and locked my clothes and purse up in a locker.


Another Surgery Done

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My day in 20 sentences…

  1. Another surgery is done.
  2. It went well.
  3. I had no anxiety before (or after).
  4. Praising God for another uneventful procedure on this journey.
  5. I have a new and improved body part.
  6. It looks worse now than when I left the house this morning.
  7. I have another drain.
  8. I’m wearing my surgical camisole to hide it AGAIN!!!
  9. My breast has an indent from the suction of the drain (temporarily).
  10. My chest, left shoulder and abdomen are colored from iodine.
  11. I can’t shower ’til the drain is out. (Can you hear me crying????????????????)
  12. While I hate my short hair, I am yet again thankful for it. (See #11.)
  13. I am not feeling itchy after surgery!!!!!!
  14. Dinner smells really, really good simmering in the kitchen. 🙂
  15. Tom and I talked about work.
  16. I played many games of 2048 on my phone.
  17. I took a nap.
  18. Tom and the girls are playing Wii while I rest in bed.
  19. I’ve taken 4 Tylenol since I’ve been home.
  20. I’m tired and having hot flashes.


Depression After Surgery

I was not prepared for Thursday afternoon.  I can’t pin point it to anything, but all of a sudden I went into this deep depression.  All I wanted to do was cry and curl up into a ball on my bed away from everyone.  Hoever, it’s uncomfortable to lay in that position and I had 2 very concerned family members in the house that didn’t think I should do that.  They wanted me to get out of the house.  I knew that I should, but I really, realy, really didn’t want to.  Like I said, I just wanted to be left alone to cry for a long time.

Nothing is horribly wrong.  Yes I have cancer, but it’s not something new.  I just had surgery a week ago and I’m feeling good, far better than I ever did on chemo.  And I don’t look as physically horrible as I thought I would after surgery.  I am sporting this lovely necklace right now… (more…)

Surviving a Mastectomy

Surviving a Mastectomy

I am on some very strong pain meds as I write this.  Please forgive any typos!

Before I give an update on surgery I have some very exciting news! Tom trimmed my hair this morning! Woohoo! The back of my neck needed to be cleaned up so he got out his trimmer and did it. With everything I’m going through right now, it’s the little things I’m excited about! Yay for hair trimming!

Let me give a quick update on how I’m doing and then if you want to keep reading all the details about my day of surgery and procedures you can. I wrote as much down about it all as I could in hopes that it would help someone else in the future (and also for my memory which is not very good right now).

It’s Saturday, 2 days after surgery. I’m taking Percocet and a muscle relaxer for pain. I’m tired, but yet can’t sleep, mostly because it’s too uncomfortable to lay down on our bed and I don’t sleep very soundly propped up with pillows. Eventually I will be tired enough to sleep, right? 🙂

I’m really sore, especially under my arm pit, but if I’m just sitting on the bed or couch, the pain is minimal. I can eat and type with the computer on my lap, without pain. But that’s about it. Everything else hurts to do. Thanks to Tom and Mom, I don’t have to do anything. (And thanks to chemo, I don’t even have to worry about styling my hair.)

Overall, we are all surprised I’m doing as good as I am. I ate breakfast at the table this morning and sat on the sofa and played mindless games on my phone while laughing at I Love Lucy episodes with Mom.  I also sat outside in the sun with Tom as he worked for a bit in the yard. (more…)

The Night Before Surgery

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Before we talk about surgery . . .

I still have all my fingernails and toenails after my manicure and pedicure yesterday.  I’m sure you were all losing sleep worrying about that, so I just wanted to let you know that first thing.  🙂  Now that my fingers and toes are pretty, I’m ready for surgery.

Last night I celebrated with friends!  We celebrated chemo being over, my good PET scan results and just getting as far as I have in this fight.  We had dinner, chatted, prayed and just enjoyed being together.  I am so thankful for these ladies (and many others) who have helped in so many ways the past 6 months! (more…)

Chemo Day 1

Well, the day is finally here.  I slept well until about 4:40am.  Since then I have been praying, sobbing, praying, sobbing, etc.  The house is still quiet.  The tears have stopped and I’m feeling more at peace.  I pray the tears will stay away, at least while the girls are around.

Last night, our 10 year old said to me, “This is the last night you’ll sleep without Chemo.  That seems strange to me.”  I know it’s on her mind . . . not knowing what to expect.  But I’m thankful she slept well and is still sleeping. 🙂  I’m thankful all of us were able to get to sleep easily.  Thank you for praying specially for this.


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